The happiest moment of my life

Today in ballet class, I was very excited and happy to be there. It was an extra class, I'd decided to take, and I'd listened to the score of Phantom of the Opera on my way there. Dreaming about playing Christine, and smiling at the feeling of knowing I have the ability inside me to pursue it.

Today, for the first time, I did a perfect double-pirouette in class - to both sides. I mean it was like flying. I was just spinning effortlessly like a ballerina glued to a music box.
My teacher stopped the class and said to me: "That was beautiful, Jasmin!", and then he started tearing up. "Is that a smile I see?", he said .. knowing - obviously, how hard I am on  myself. ..
And yes, it was a smile, and I started to tear up to. "I am so proud of you", he said.
And this moment was one of the happiest moments I have ever had in my life.

So I will forever remember that joy.
And whatever I do, from now on; I choose to be happy.
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When my teacher hugged me, saying how beautiful I'd been looking these past few weeks and how much I'd grown ever since the day I had that talk with him about my struggles in dance .. see even then.. it was almost as if I wouldn't let myself be fully happy in that moment - I was thinking about the minor flaws and how I could get better.

But I had every reason to be, and that part of me telling me I shouldn't be, must die now!

I promise myself and remember that I choose to be happy and express love in everything I do.
I am going to shine and soar like no-one can take it away from me - because truth is.. no-one can .. except myself!

I have a beautiful, outstanding soul and I have so much to say and give.
And if I don't choose to be that, because I am scared or I judge myself, then I might as well die.
Then there's no point at all, and I'll be fooling everyone, including myself. Then I don't want to live.

.. So I choose to be happy and I am lucky to have found the best career to show that in.
I have dealt with fear for a long time, but now I am sick of it, and I will not give it any more credit.

Just you wait, world.
The things that I can do
The love and devotion I have

I have a feeling I even have the ability to surprise myself

With this note, I, Jasmin, promise this.
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