What makes you happy

A few days later, and much has happened. What on earth happened to structure and plans. They are much more difficult to grab hold of, once there is no other system checking up on you – no school or job.

I am currently looking for a position in the Salvation Army or a simple babysitter job in the city besides that, since the hours for that would be perfect. Best if I can have a few days a week where I can audition in the morning. As in getting up at 5am to sign up.

I’m sure something great will soon happen. I mean I can’t be doing no show or have no job for long.. that just can’t be God’s plan.

In the meantime I am trying to find what I do best without having to be in a show. No, it’s more about WHAT do I have to do to be happy?

Who makes me happy? What activities? How far away do I sometimes have to travel to recharge, or is my room enough.

Sometimes I find myself just living a simple life. Simple as in – no plan, nothing new, no risks, no stress – yet the stress of having the desire to do more. I am not a person who feeds off of doing nothing with my life, and I hope you certainly aren’t too. Thing is, nobody is – but I find that sometimes we have to push so much ourselves, whether it’s the action of getting up and doing something or breaking your boundaries to do more and take the risks you need to, that we sometimes settle for less because we’re scared or simply because it’s easier. It’s always easier doing nothing, but is it safe? Does it in other words make you happy? Not at all…. I mean not for me. I know that I have to keep growing, exploring and believing in my dreams in order to be happy.

Interesting – I just got an email on my phone from a casting website with the headlines, “To the actor – You are not alone!”. Isn’t that funny how the universe just sends us things as we think of it, or even sometimes things we need we didn’t know we needed.

As I write I am looking out the window. It is very grey and rainy. The kind of rain that just washes all away. That’s standing.

Also my new bracelet is shuffling on the computer, almost sounding like a mouse playing with a tin can. This is a bracelet my friend, Allisun, from the markle residence got for me. A simple string with 3 silver palets on them. One with their own word on it. There was a bag full of words, and all the friends from the markle could pick their own three. I chose: LOVE, STORY and WANDER. I feel like that pretty much sums up my life style as a person. Always looking for places and people with true love, always looking for or sharing great stories, and always being about, exploring, traveling, preferably alone, wandering.

Today I tried to go for an audition for Fiddler on the roof, but they didn’t see non-union people. Better luck next time!

This week another Fiddler is coming up – for Broadway! And then the tour of The Sound of Music. This shall be very exciting, if I get seen. I am quite perfect for both shows.

I love listening to something new, so maybe I’ll just do that this week.. since the audition schedule isn’t crazy. This week I plan on reading as much as I can too. I have hugeeee pile in my room I want to get through, and I also recall always feeling so fulfilled after reading a good book. Can you remember your favorite book? I remembered my favorite book that I read as a kid, the other day as I was having a meal with a friend at a Mexican restaurant. I don’t know why I thought of it, but I was talking with my friend about places we’d like to see and travel to. Tibet is one of the countries that have always been on the top of my list. Why? Because when I was about 14 I read an extraordinary book about a young girl on an adventure in Tibet, and the landscape was described so beautifully and visual that I so wanted to go there. Isn’t it beautiful what books can do to us?

I must keep reminding myself that I have the world at my feet. And then I need to dare to take new steps, from that I will be happy, I am convinced!

I hope you find happiness in what you do.

Much love, Jasmin