Reminiscing...

As I sit and reminisce, I think about what it is that make people fall in love. Truly. Is it energy that’s there from the beginning, because God planted a seed of attraction to one’s souls from the beginning, or is it based on the experiences you have with that person. Based on what ever the circumstances were, maybe there was a moment that that person did something to you that changed you for the better. And maybe other times you just don’t have that clash of a magical experience, even though you look cute together and you’re good for one another?

Sometimes you look at a person who could give you the world, and that person is just not ‘it’, you know?

Or am I totally bonkers?

- So what is that ‘it’ factor?

How is it provoked? .. A touch or smile or behavior. Can’t we all relate to one of them? But if we really think about it. Can we define what specifically made us fall in love, or when it happened? Not really, can we? So that’s when I start to think there is no explanation. Simply, this brings me to realize that love is something so much bigger than ourselves. Love is pure, love is from God. God is the maker of love and he put that seed into each of us, so that we were capable of loving each other, and above all him. And when love is the purest and most beautiful between humans, - as I’ve learned – it’s like loving God, touching God, feeling closer to God. If love is not there and you treat other people like it’s that beautiful form of love as God wished for you, - you only feel further away from God. We are all so unique, that I think we can’t possible be right for every person on this planet, even if they save dour life or sent us a million roses that made us weak in the knees. God didn’t intend for it to be so easy. He knows where we are, keeps track of us every day of our lives, and knows who he would like us to meet. If we listen to him and follow him, he will lead us to the people who we are most capable of loving, and who is most capable of loving us. That pure love feels rare… but you know, I’ve found that the closer you are to God, the deeper level of love you understand in the people you meet. This means that if you keep God close at heart, you come across those people he intended for you to love and shed your light on the most.

This explains why I have felt such a strong love for all my friends and partners I have met in NYC. When I have been most close to God, the level of love I have found and shared in people was inpecable. Truly. To the point where I thought I was meant to marry that person – boy or girl, teacher or friend…. Being fully honest, this was real love – but as I looked deeper, I was only just starting to understand that the form of love I was starting to find in my new bonds were so beautiful because God was involved, - or rather I involved him. And that feels so incredibly overwhelming, because in the beginning I didn’t know what to do with such a strong love for another human being. I saw the wonders of growing up and truly being seen as an adult, not just a child still learning – but I also learnt to look at every person in the city as completely equally beautiful…. I found love in all ages, I found I was accepted by all ages. Because when we truly grow up – which I believe is when we understand to look at ourselves as the young spirit we all are, no matter the age, I think the understanding of time is so strange that we grasp the world at our feet wherever it takes us – not just what our parents tell us to do.

All you have to do to find love, I find… is to truly believe in it. Just like you believe in Jesus wholeheartedly. How can you give your whole heart like Jesus did, if you do not believe in him fully?