I am lying in my nest, under the best comforter ever and my head resting on a dumbo pillow, warmed by my new woolen cozy socks and the cute sounds of guinea pigs and the gross, but endearing snorts from Naya the dog... in other words, the basement of the house at the Wittenbergs.
The time is 12:12... afternoon time. I just jumped back underneath the covers from a breakfast break.. eggs on toast and chocolate milk and cheerios.. uhmm so American and so delicious.. I can't even..
Yes, I'm on holiday.. so this is well derserved and TOTALLY alright to be so lazy. I am telling you, I have needed to sleep on an insane level for so long. I got 10 hours last night, and yesterday I slept pretty much the whole day, with movie breaks in between... I watched Grey's anatomy series and the new Nicholas Sparks movie 'Safe Haven' and The Hunger games 2 'Catching fire'. And it was the best day ever. So great.
So great.
It was just so great. Being able to have a nap till forever was like a dream come true after a long semester with lots of big projects going on at once. I've been up late and up early to work on or film our dance video, that I partly choreographed.. there's been our movie musical project, which we've worked on intensely and will start filming soon.. and then all our finals. I was happy for the most part about the results.. mostly for our pop/rock class I was told that out of the yes, maybe and no piles from the audition table (on the 'real world' level), I got a yes.. meaning call back and keep in the good pile. This is good news.
Final picture with Pop/rock class. Favorite class of the year by far!
Geniuses: Bobby Cronin and Daniel Lincoln
Final class with Acting for film and TV.
Genius: TJ Mannix!
Final project for our movement class, theme "Dreams".
I was black/white swan. Makeup done by self!
On set filming for our jazz video
Group photo for our jazz video! This is our year.
Aren't we beautiful?!
Working on script for movie musical by Battery park!
... I have honestly recently had a downfall in my trust in myself as an artist.. I am not quite sure where this comes from. But I know I was so low that I needed to talk to a great teacher about how to find inspiration and my heart in the work again.. because at the time I'd done tons to find it again, and for a long period of time it seemed like I couldn't find it again. And it's never been so long that I've been away from my drive, devotion and persistence.
I am not certain if I have found my drive again.. I think I need to tell myself it's ok that I don't have as much energy all the time. There's been a lot of things I've taken on this year.
I just needed to hear that I was worthy and had enough to give to art. I knew I should be able to tell myself this, but for some reason I couldn't believe it. It had been long since I could see myself doing something grand. It just didn't feel realistic. But Iv'e realized this.... I've been confused because I've fallen more and more out of the 'regular types', the 'equal triple threads' and evident 'musical theatre types' as they are now.... thing is I don't fit perfectly into stereo types .. this is difficult to realize because when I walk into an audition room, a lot of times people haven't known how to cast me.. where to place me. But I've realized that it's because I have something else. I'm trying to figure out what.. I'm still learning and exploring... but I know that there are still shows ahead that have not been developed yet.
I have something unique and new to give. And it's hard to stand up for it, if I don't believe in that new.. but I am working on it. and trying to trust that it will be a new at least someone will love.
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So now I am in the basement in my nest, yes, I need to give myself rest.. of mind and body.. and then later I'll perhaps take another walk out in autumn. It's my favorite thing these days. I've been some extremely gorgeous places. I will show you some of my favorite pictures.I told you how much I love the wind too right? Well the autumn this year is just even more magical.. it's an adventure and like a paradise to walk around in it. It is simply just beautiful here in New York.
Well I am looving the rain too. My grandpa does. I always thought him crazy for loving being wet and having a gross shower of water blown into your face so you can hardly see where you're going, and your hands get ice cold from walking in the rain, if you are fortunate enough to hold an ubrella... but no no, this year I love it so much. It's like a gift to me every time I can step out into the rain. The other day I was running and laughing through the streets as cats and dogs were pouring over me by Central Park, laughing so hard and feeling so free because I had no umbrella to protect me.
I'm peculiar.
This Halloween holiday I was kind of planning on getting away.. you know like take a Jasmin-like spontaneous trip away to maybe Oklahoma ... to see where Laury, my favorite Rodgers&Hammerstein story takes place, or perhaps Ohio where several of my friends from school are from, or Atlantic city where the musical Ragtime takes place which I recently saw at the library, or Boston where other friends of mine are staying.... YES so many places to go and visit spontaneously.. I am sure I would have a wonderful time.. but I wouldn't be fully rested, I figured. For the first time in my life I have decided to do nothing on a holiday break .. literally just prioritize sleep for this week. Which I am getting already.. and then yeah well of course I have things planned.
Wednesday and Thursday this week I have booked an amazing voluntary job in musical theatre. My former Spring Awakening director, Nathan Brewer, needed extras for ensemble scenes for a film shoot. I don't know much about what my job will be, just to show up be ready and positive. There are big Broadway stars on the shoot, so it will be so exciting, and amazing experience and a fantastic opportunity and look on my resume.
The rest of the week I plan on being more keen on my new VISA situation, I want to feel more comfortable with the whole process. I am scared that it won't work out. But I really don't want to have to travel away.. I feel at home here and I want my dreams to come true here and see myself grow more here.. It's my favorite place to do it. I've never seen and learnt more in my whole life.
This place is just so fantastic. And I also want to be where the challenge is greatest.. the more challenge the more bravery and gut it takes.. the stronger and more awesome I become.
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Right now I am ... of course still lying in my nest... but now multitasking with Sarah, we're watching Funny face, an Audrey Hepburn, together. It's very cute and I haven't watched many of Audrey Hepburn's, so I'm glad she got me on for this.Last night I spent some quality time with the two other kids as well.. I saw a movie with each of them, Brave with Emma and Catching fire with Jake. Fun times.
Aaaah I'm on a break. I can't eveeen!!
I hope to see some movies on their netflix these next days... since I don't have a computer or access to netflix at home... I have missed it. I have missed my home here on Long Island. So I am glad to be here for a few days. My plan is to go back home tomorrow night.
Train ride to Long Island..
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A few days ago, I was visited by my old friend from Denmark. Emil from my Contact show at Betty Nansen. This was the most amazing theatre experience I have from home in Copenhagen. Emil was also the actor in my first music video. We always hit it off and had the most fun together. I got to show him around the city. And always having had an unfulfilled fling with him, we ended up kissing by my favorite romantic fountain in the city. The one by Washington square park... just because I asked him too.. otherwise I thought I might never get a kiss here. And that's not ok, when you find the perfect spot for a romantic kiss, you should take the advantage of it when you have the opportunity!
It was great, we had the best and most magical evening together, including late night bagels and yoga class in Greenwich village and exploring the East village. One night. One fantasy. And then he was off. Off to the next place in USA, a ride that he'd gotten by a stranger he met at Union square - of course.. that's how he rolls.
That's how anyone rolls who runs by NYC.
The big apple is for quick, big and memorable experiences.. in every field quite literally.
Next thing I am waiting for my Broadway breakthrough ;)
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Now to my favorite places for autumn in the city:1.) Prospect park - I found this place as I was heading towards the big Cemetery in Brooklyn, working on my character for my final Meisner character of this year (a monologue from the spoon river anthology). Prospect park is like Central park.. only in Brooklyn.. I mean it's not as big.. but it's definitely 'the park' on the Brooklyn side. It's much more 'forest-ey' and open with less people and less activities going on. That may just have been because I was there on a weekday in the early afternoon, while it was raining... but anyways, I had the most amazing walk and got some absolutely fantastic pictures. This place is so peaceful and amazing.
Wood side cemetary. Gorgeous.
My favorite picture from Prospect park.. of course edited a bit,
but not too much.. these are the real colors. Amazing right?
2.) Battery park - now this is way smaller, and more like a riverside area than a big an actual park.. but what they've done with the arrangement of flowers and the sitting places are amazing. This place is a 5 minute walk from my school, so this is where I go in some breaks when I need some sun or some air or some alone time. The beautiful cover picture from facebook that so many friends commented about, I took here.
There is a special place where you can walk up a set of stairs to this single bench. Just one bench that just sits there, ready for a wonderer to come gaze at the view or a couple to come get some alone time.
It's perfect.
My favorite spot by Battery park. The building behind me is the school.
I am looking over the water at the Statue of Liberty!
Gold and heaven by Battery park!
3.) Fort Tryant park - favorite all time place. This is a better breathing place and free writing place and adventure place than Central Park. I am so glad I found it. I may love it so much because I have a special story attached to this park. I came here first with my best friend and we carved our names in the tree, so when I look at the view, I always see it as if I'm sharing it with her.
This is a place she had recommended from another friend when she needed to find a special spot to breathe out of the city. And the fact that she now shared this with me is very special. Not many people know about this place because it's the furthest uptown Manhattan you can go to the last stop of the A-train... but it really only takes 30 min or so from where I live and it's so easy to go there.
There are so many squirrels in the park that are very friendly and brave with humans and there are beavers crawling around you on the grass!
The first thing you see when you step into the park
Beavers running close to my feet!
Pictures from the day I was with Kerrie in the park:
Tarzan and Jane
A little Anastasia <3
My little sunshine and best friend
In her neighborhood.
Some pretty fine places I'd like to live in some day!
On my roof top!
Sunset at the Markle!
The only reason I haven't written Central Park on this list yet, is that I haven't gone to visit Central Park for the autumn this year yet. But I can't wait, and it's definitely on my list of things to do when I get back on Manhattan.
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Wow.. I am heading towards my last semester at NYFA... It's so overwhelming. I mean for long I haven't wanted to even think about it, because I knew the thought of it would make me so sad... but now that I see there is only roughly 4 months left of school, it is really starting to get to me.Therefore these days in bed will be about finding my positivity and fire for putting the last effort in the NYFA work. I need not to spend my 4 months being sad about ending soon.. lol. I need it to be a blast and the best memory I have from school so far.
And then after that I will be staying for my training 4 months more in the country, I assume. I hope to find work in a theatre in some way and then to have several projects running, maybe find readings or other things that my teachers have in the working process.
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I want to get some more rest now. Sounds silly right.. maybe I'm out there to get a record in sleeping the most in a week. We'll see. Susan will soon be home so I might do some devotion or just cozy tea time with her later.
Their cat Simba. Cutee!
I need just a teeeeny bit of air too..so I might take that walk around the house and let you know how autumn looks in Hempstead!
I will definitely talk to you soon!
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...... Look at how pretty it is outside in the suburbs!
You are right about the photo's....they are beautiful. Glad you were able to come. Great job winning Apple's to Apple's:D
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