Yup, a month left of school.

hey dudes, hope you're all good out there. Today it's Saturday in New York City, and I'm chilling in my bed, next to my beast teddy bear and a cozy blanket over my legs that are very much sore from dance class.

I have been obsessed with taking extra dance classes these past few weeks, only because we started being allowed to enter other year's classes... meaning we can attend more than one ballet class a week, as we have scheduled. Seeing no growth has been depressive, because we've only had one class weekly there's so much pressure on finding the time to go over exercises alone and working out alone... but in the end it's difficult to grow when you're not in class to get feedback. I took extra ballet classes with my favorite dance teacher Sara Antkowiak.. she's just such a genious. And I mean I finish school in a month's time, so I'm fluttered, feeling like I should take as many classes now as I can, even if I'm too tired or anything.  .. anything to get more experience before the school and money runs out. They eat my money this school, as wonderful as they are... they eat way too much more than necessary, and it's kind of unfair.. so I decided I should fight for it more and actually take everything I have paid for.

Yeah, so school finishing in a month's time is a pretty sad time ahead. I don't find it scary, future and auditions and networking ahead.... no I feel more sad and melancholic about ending such a sweet and intimate time with people that are so dear to me. Doesn't it just feel like yesterday I took off on my adventure to NY? Well, now I am FOR SURE a New Yorker, for sure have an almost clean American accent, for sure feel at home, for sure have grown up ... maybe not completely (because I plan to never do so..).. but definitely much more grown that I ever was and ever imagined I'd be. On so many beautiful levels I've seen the world, and it makes me scared to think of what I'll lose.

I fear not to go new places. I fear to lose my bravery. I fear to be stuck because I don't have money. I fear not to find the people who admire my talent and will help me in the business. I fear that I don't know what I want to do with all my ideas.

I KNOW the key to successful results of your goals is to FOCUS on one thing at a time, and give your all to that goal. That's how I got here. I wouldn't have if I tried to get into training as a therapist, work on getting my music to the radio in Denmark, spend my money on travelling a bit first.. and so much more I probably wanted to do back then.

What's quite overwhelming is that now I just want so much more (literally like the song from the Fantasticks! - a part I could very well play. Please look this musical up if you don't know it, it's the longest running musical - now off-Broadway. Classic, sweet piece.).

So why do I want more now? Because I realize slowly as I get older that there is less time to do them?
Or because I have found more talents and qualities about myself I can offer to the world?

Possibly a mixture of both.. you tell me. How old are you? How much do you dream of still doing? I mean no human desires standing still and not looking forward to any change at all, right? I mean that's just superficial and a cover up, right? I hope you're not one of them. If you think this way, please read ''the artist's way - not just for artist's but intended for every human being. The book takes you through painting, dancing, singing, talking, exploring, questioning and reminiscing things about yourself that you knew and had forgotten, or did know and haven't paid attention to in a while.. or things about your future or even where you stand now, but haven't validated or considered much.
Generally, that's just part of what the book does for me. It's really a gift to human kind.

See, I love those kind of things. Things in life that are almost free, but that have a power, a message, an essence that changes you, awakens you, strengthens you in a way.
I'm talking about things like:
- A phenomenal view (for Christ's sake, take your time to wake up and watch the sunset at least every other month!, find your favorite view around you, and when you walk outside make the decision to keep eyes glued on your device, or look around you, all that God's given you.)
- A poignant piece of music/dance/theatre . How wonderful is it to be given the permission for a little while to dream away and let yourself imagine another time and place where there are other things to fight for and experience.
- A friend. Someone God has definitely sent you so you feel loved, supported and not lonely. I mean is there no greater gift?
.. For me the people I want to thank who have come into my life this month (which has actually been an unusually major gift this month): Charlie & Carol, Mary-Anne, Keziah. I'm forgetting someone I'm sure, because I know I have had a lot more to smile about this month :)

- And other things that I mean are free gifts for you are wise words from a book, an unforgettable street performance, a blessed church morning.
But literally all the knowledge you need is up till this day more and more free. Everything you need to know about playing the guitar, cooking, sewing, self-defense, swimming, travelling is on youtube or some place else. You can have EVERYTHING, do you realize that.. with a little imagination. You can have a fire place in front of you from youtube.. you know? All that is JUST the materialistic things in our lives.. but everything else mentioned above.. I mean wow. Really, free? Those are the real gifts man.. that's what you gotta wish for and go for.

Please be open to find them and receive them.
Bless you all and love and love.
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