The last one.

Here I am, sitting in my room.. for the last blog post in my room at the Markle. This will mark the bookend to my New York City blog.

It’s hard to believe that I will be moving out tomorrow, flying back to Europe – Denmark for now.

Much against my will and emotions, but not against God’s plan for me; and that is the one I trust, the one I grasp and cling onto will all my might.

I’m listening to some of my favorite songs that I’ve performed over the two years, either in school, after school for performances in the city or from worship nights. There’s so much story, memory and love in every note.

I love that I have these memories, I love that it’s hard as heck to leave the city. – Quite frankly, an event I have not yet let myself fully process, because I am still in shock and still in conflict with my situation – but I think this may very well be for the best. I can process when I get home and start my next chapter, but Jesus has protected me, poured His love and grace over me, so that I could enjoy these last few days in the city. This is where my heart is – and so on so many levels I am preparing to feel like I have that organ pulled out of my body, the second I take off tomorrow at midnight.. but I know this is not true. The Holy spirit has made a home in my heart, and that does not become more faint, the further I move away from where I found it.

Therefore, I have started making a list of the reasons why I should look forward to returning to Denmark. It list that will help me find heart there too. It lists people, places and moments. All things that are priceless and that I know will only build onto my story beautifully, orchestrated exactly how God intends it to.

And I will remember the story I leave behind, knowing that is it not a door closing, but a window open inside me, a treasure box that will be kept in my heart forever.

My gosh – how I’ve grown in just two years. I almost feel like I have broken the Danish record of most growing up and learning and blossoming in a matter of just 2 years.

From endless lessons about humanity and finding my place in this world in theatre school, to exploring the whole country and numerous cultures and dozens of places that I couldn’t find anywhere else in the same way. From the timeless friendship moments, to falling in love and growing with the most beautiful souls I could hope for. From the wallflower, to the star in the classroom. From learning how to audition in NYC, to having the honor of being cast as the original lead in a new musical in the city.

I love the immense layers the city has added to my testimony. Layers that formed me for the better, made me find understanding and grace and above all - made me find Jesus.

Thank you to everyone who has been part of my journey and who continue to be even after I leave.

To all my fellow students, - I am proud of all of us and more proud to have shared such an amazing two years with you in the best education anyone could wish for.

To all my teachers, - thank you for everything you taught me, for believing in me and for being proud of me.

To all my friends at the markle – thank you for being true sisters that stick with me through thick and thin and have added so much to my daily joy.

To all my fellow worshippers and the family in the salvation army – thank you for all the times you prayed over me and for showing me God’s grace and love in flesh.

To all my young students in dance and drama – thank you for believing in yourself and trust me to help you blossom, and for rewarding me with more than you know.

To all the short connections and people I’ve bumped into on the busy streets of NYC – thank you for completing the true New York spirit every day, for adding to the city where nothing or no one is unusual, that city that frees you up, challenges you and never sleeps!

I for sure am already thanking God in advance for all He has made perfect for me in the future.

I came for two years, thinking I’d stay longer right away, but it shows there is more work, more to find, before settling. Or perhaps – I will remain a spirit that never settles. That’ show I’ve lived best so far. Always on the go – always ready for something new and greeting the next hand. Perhaps this is my strength, and this is only God using it in full motion. I will be back in the city, that’s for sure. But for now – there are more mountains to climb and I will treasure every part of that testimony there is to come.

What better way to begin a new chapter of your life, by lifting it all up to Jesus and letting Him mend it the way He plans. All my fear, grief, loss and shock I lift up to Him. Everything, because I know that where there is no way; He will make a new way.

With all my love, to all my readers and anyone who’s found even the slightest bit of comfort or joy in following parts of my journey and seeing things be fulfilled bit by bit.

To everyone, especially, who is taking off on a new adventure, full of fear and excitement at the same time – it is my hope that you will find courage and trust in the unknown.

There’s so much bad that will be turned into good, there’s so many memories not yet made, there’s so many leaps to surprise yourself with in the future.