So wow.. so many
doors opening up. I wanted to do a performing arts teaching job at a summer
camp in Texas. I got the job, but now I feel like I can’t get away from my city
with these new connections I’ve made.
*
Sitting here with
Jessica, right after watching a movie and eating licorice. .. yep I’m preparing
for coming home to Danish delicates!! There is nothing like Danish licorice.
I just talked the
whole summer situation through with her, just to air all my different options.
Turns out, I worked hard at getting a job at a summer camp to share my
experience elsewhere and grow my social network in the salvation army, and in
the end to my surprise I was offered a job as a drama teacher in Texas.. but
the day after the call I had this feeling of not being able to leave the city..
like emotionally, my heart is here in Jody and Stuart’s ministry. I want to be
part of their beautiful growth. I literally cannot bear that they left the
country today, and I can’t keep working on our plans for the concert and more worship
music.
And knowing I might
have the last time in NYC for a while, I want to actually settle where my heart
has started really growing strong. .. instead of wandering spontaneously from
place to place. I will ALWAYS travel and love to meet new people, but I will
for once allow myself not to feel restless and stuck. Once the heart has a
home, there is no need to detach. I believe I am loved and wanted here, and I
am here for a reason. More importantly, God loves me here. I know that because
I feel him so close, when I am here.
*
Today I took a
suitcase to my room and started putting things in it. I know, I’m in very good
time… but still emotionally it is right around the corner. 8 days, and I am
flying overseas for the first time in 2 years. For the first time in 2 years I
will return home. Home? Home is a very abstract word, I find, since I don’t see
it as many people. Home is where the heart is, yes? So at the moment home is
very much in Copenhagen, because I miss them so and want to be close to them so.
Wow.. so
overwhelming. So, yeah, I already opened my suitcase, so I can throw a little
something in it every day for this next week.
I don’t want anything
more than to enter the apartment and hug them all so tight, all at the same
time – preferably, and then just stay there for quite a few hours… perhaps one
or a few will run off a few times to grab a cup of coffee for me and my mom to
share.. and then someone would run off and grab me and my sister’s point shoes,
so we could go on pointe into the hug… and then we would all tickle each other…
or Not… in any way we would end up laughing about something so ridiculous or
just the joy and surreal idea of actually all being together again, that we
would get cramps from laughing so much and collapse into a big pile of family
tangles, in the best way ever.
Oh yes, I’m coming
home!
To be continued xxx
